So here we are at Day 29. One day to go of my 30 day clean out. No sugar, dairy, grains, legumes or alcohol. I also aimed for better sleep, exercise three times a week and down time. The sleep was a little hit and miss due to two rambunctious kids who need to have things like cuddles, pee stops, quick chats or just a replaced teddy at all sorts of rude hours in the night, and the fact that we’ve just started our own PT studio and are doing some pretty narly hours there and back at home means sleep at some point isn’t an option, but we improved a bit. The downtime, yep it got better, I aimed to read more and worry about the dishes less and it worked on some days. Giving up TV was another suggestion made by Whole30 creators but no danger there, we barely turn ours on anyhow and that’s because we know, as all of you do, that TV rots your mind. Plus we literally just don’t have time to stare vacuously at a screen for hours on end, we have work to do. Did you know that you burn more calories sleeping than you do watching TV? Yep, it’s that mind numbing.
Was it hard? Yes in a sense but not in others. It was freeing in many ways. Ironically, because I just couldn’t go to my favourite pick me ups (not actually pick me ups at all really) when I felt I “needed” something, I had nothing to resist and inevitably fail over. Like the other day at 4pm when I couldn’t just eat the block of chocolate I found at the top of the pantry while rooting around for Casper’s Birthday Boy badge. Because I couldn’t have it there was no: “Should I-shouldn’t I-should I- oh f*ck it I’ll just eat it-yum-sh*t why did I do that-I didn’t even feel like it-could have at least sat down and enjoyed it-man why don’t I have more self control?” And of course then there was also no self loathing that invariably follows gobbing down chocolate for no good reason at all. Interestingly, I did also think, ‘would that be awesome or would it be kind of sickly and gross?” So that says something to my change of taste buds! Four weeks ago I’d be all over it like a rash and would be turning the packet over looking for more when it was done. And also feeling a bit crap.
There has been one thing I have missed. Lattes. I have drunk an inordinate amount of tea with almond milk to make up for a caffeine with creamy milk hit. I haven’t missed anything else in the form of dairy but coffee and milk daily, yep that’s been tough. I like the idea of Whole30’ing permanently but adding in a daily latte. This isn’t Whole30 though so it would be some bastardised version that would subsequently lead to missed meals, a side of chocolate croissants and an evening gin because, well why not, it’s f*cked anyways right?
So I feel I am at a cross roads. To go back to eating pretty well but trying to lean towards being more Whole30 ish, or just shoot on through to a Whole60 and then reassess? In plenty of ways I don’t feel like I’ve peaked in the magic outcomes with a Whole30. I’ve certainly not lost any weight, though my clothes fit slightly better perhaps. I think that can be attributed to the fact that for me I am eating in abundance to how I used to eat and have also trained three times in 30 days and not three times a week, as I am returning to exercise slowly after a big foot operation.
I Whole30’d not to lose weight but to sever my emotional ties to food, to lose my fat phobia and to learn to eat three properly sized meals with no snacks in between. If I assess those goals then I can safely say I have come a long way in achieving them. But are they in the bag? No, not as yet. I know it takes years to form a habit as deeply as I want these ones entrenched and so I plan to Whole 30 again and again until it is second nature to eat three eggs with veg for breakfast and then not eat again till lunch (and eat lunch, a decent one). I feel that my body is still making the change from sugar burner to fat burner and I am not surprised seeing as I have mostly made horrid choices for it like missing meals, snacking solely on fruit and dates, drinking a latte for lunch, having porridge for breakfast (think energy spikes and crushing lows, shaky afternoons and post dinner snacking). Cooking with fat (and not just any fat but lard) has been eye and stomach opening for me as I have been so habitually mean with the fat in the past (to no avail though and now I know why) that the taste buds have been popping with sensation. So the fact that I didn’t lose weight is of no consequence to me. The fact that I ate a lot more fat and much bigger portions and didn’t gain weight however was very empowering. To read more about the virtues of fat go here.
We come across many people who want to change but can’t get themselves there as the task seems so daunting, the goals too ambiguous. Whole30 is a good way to set yourself rules, an end goal point and a system of eating designed to make every aspect of your health and your life better. It’s only 30 days and you are able to eat with voracity beautifully prepared foods. It is not a diet but more of a challenge. And what you realise about your eating habits while on it will astound you. Whole30 will change you – it’s a wake up call and an amazing one. Try it out. 30 days, you can do it! For more information contact us at Collective Fitness and while you do book yourself in for three free sessions, you’ll love the training!
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